Post by autumnwolf on May 2, 2008 15:59:12 GMT 1
My manic episode is just around the corner and I don't want it.
Anyone who wants it is welcome to it. I haven't got time for it, I've been well and stable and life's been good to me.
But no, no it comes around to it again. Once more I will have a brain full of fizzing ideas, insomnia and intolerance for anything that gets in the way. Concentration will be shot to pieces...
...BUT I will no doubt end up doing something stupid, something I shouldn't. Complete lack of consequences for anything. I want something, I'll buy it, doesn't matter whether we can afford it or not, if I want to go somewhere, well it matters not if I have a job, I have to go there. It's bloody stupid and I really don't want it anymore.
I know it's a gift, I know the Goddess has given me this insight and I knwo I have to pay a price for it, but I really don't want to go through it again. Please
Anyone who wants it is welcome to it. I haven't got time for it, I've been well and stable and life's been good to me.
But no, no it comes around to it again. Once more I will have a brain full of fizzing ideas, insomnia and intolerance for anything that gets in the way. Concentration will be shot to pieces...
...BUT I will no doubt end up doing something stupid, something I shouldn't. Complete lack of consequences for anything. I want something, I'll buy it, doesn't matter whether we can afford it or not, if I want to go somewhere, well it matters not if I have a job, I have to go there. It's bloody stupid and I really don't want it anymore.
I know it's a gift, I know the Goddess has given me this insight and I knwo I have to pay a price for it, but I really don't want to go through it again. Please